Post by Jess on Dec 31, 2011 12:53:54 GMT -5
I've been going on months upon months where I just havn't been able to focus completely. You know when you have those "out of body" sort of moments, when you're going through the motions but you don't feel like you have full grasp of all your senses? Like you don't feel completely whole and your mind is just everywhere except for where you're at and what you're doing?
I think I've just had a lot of my mind with it being my senior year and that with college applications and everything I've been just.. freaking myself out. When I work on college apps, I can't completely focus. When I'm at school, I keep zoning out and can't pay attention. When I'm practicing the clarinet/piano I'm having a hard time concentrating and enough to fully "master" my piece, and I'm really not sure why? Even online, I'm just... kind of doing the first thing I feel like and have lost all planning and timing skills that I've had so well before (well, had really well IRL). I literally have NO sense of time anymore. I finished work at 11 last night and it felt as if it was 5 in the afternoon. I ended up staying awake until 1 and then slept an hour through my alarm, making me late for work the next morning. ;~; I seriously don't know what's wrong that my mind is just so.. bamboozled. I can't really put a finger on it, but I'm not sure if there's really a reason for it, either.. like if it's just a part of my brain developing and my age? (I just turned 18 though, soo.. ahh. I dunno. And speaking of which, so many people have been treating me differently since I turned 18 now and I don't know how to react to it. I mean, I've always been a really good worker and people have commented on that, and I've tried to step up since, but all of a sudden it seems like I'm not good enough now that I'm an "adult" and people keep making it out to see that way?)
It probably sounds like I'm just blabbing, and I mostly just needed to vent, but has anyone else ever felt this way or is feeling this way also? Time just keep slipping through my fingers and everything keeps on moving and I feel as if I just can't keep up with it anymore. I don't want to think about it anymore, and I just can't seem to be able to when I genuinely try to. :/
I think I've just had a lot of my mind with it being my senior year and that with college applications and everything I've been just.. freaking myself out. When I work on college apps, I can't completely focus. When I'm at school, I keep zoning out and can't pay attention. When I'm practicing the clarinet/piano I'm having a hard time concentrating and enough to fully "master" my piece, and I'm really not sure why? Even online, I'm just... kind of doing the first thing I feel like and have lost all planning and timing skills that I've had so well before (well, had really well IRL). I literally have NO sense of time anymore. I finished work at 11 last night and it felt as if it was 5 in the afternoon. I ended up staying awake until 1 and then slept an hour through my alarm, making me late for work the next morning. ;~; I seriously don't know what's wrong that my mind is just so.. bamboozled. I can't really put a finger on it, but I'm not sure if there's really a reason for it, either.. like if it's just a part of my brain developing and my age? (I just turned 18 though, soo.. ahh. I dunno. And speaking of which, so many people have been treating me differently since I turned 18 now and I don't know how to react to it. I mean, I've always been a really good worker and people have commented on that, and I've tried to step up since, but all of a sudden it seems like I'm not good enough now that I'm an "adult" and people keep making it out to see that way?)
It probably sounds like I'm just blabbing, and I mostly just needed to vent, but has anyone else ever felt this way or is feeling this way also? Time just keep slipping through my fingers and everything keeps on moving and I feel as if I just can't keep up with it anymore. I don't want to think about it anymore, and I just can't seem to be able to when I genuinely try to. :/